Monthly Archives: April 2012

My worrying is on overdrive

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Yep! That’s me…I am a worrier.

Did this happen when I was younger? Nope, just after I had kids. Time goes by super, duper fast and I worry all the time now. Yes, I am religious and I do pray about my worries, it’s just the letting go part that is difficult for me.

I had this idea that after the “deed” is done, you should get an email before the sperm is about to attach and hold on for dear life. The email would say, do you accept this amount of worry/responsibility that is about to be bestowed upon you. Click yes or no. If you click no, the sperm would blow up, well maybe not blow up, but venture off on a different route. If you click yes, then you are fully aware and you were warned.

Of course, if this ever was a possibility (however small it may be, everything is done by email nowadays), I would have most definitely clicked yes for both of my girls. It’s just before you have kids, YOU HAVE NO IDEA! Your life is about to be replaced with a full-time job of worrying for your little one…

– Don’t jump on your bed, you could fall off and hit your head.

– Don’t even think about running with those scissors in your hand.

– Be careful, you almost crossed the street without looking.

– Wear your helmet/pads on your bike, you could fall off and get hurt.

– Don’t you dare go by that pool till I am outside.

And it could go on for pages! Any of this sound familiar?

Then, it gets worse as they get older. The worries get bigger and bigger and bigger. According to my mom, it never stops, even when kids grow up and move out of the house. Awesome!

I really am trying to get a handle on all my worries. But, I have to blame the news for part of it. I like to refer to the news as the DEVIL. 😉 I never even know half the crap that goes on in the world, till I turn on the news. A good side is being informed, and a bad side is now knowing all this yuck that goes on. So, that just adds to my worry…damn you news! It doesn’t help that with my cable provider the default channel when you turn on my t.v. is, guess what….the 24hr news station!! You can’t get away from it!

So, I really am going to work on it. But, to all of those who read this and don’t have kids, listen to me. Since the whole email thing isn’t in action yet, I am trying to warn you now. It is a lifetime of happiness and fulfillment all rolled up into a ball with a huge amount of worrying/responsibility with being a parent.

When I was younger, my grandmother would always talk about how much she worried about us. I would just look at her and say, “that’s crazy, Mamaw we are fine, you don’t need to worry about us.” Now I am so much like my 92-year-old grandmother, IT IS CRAZY!

Kids and that stuff they say…

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It is true. No one else will tell you the heart-breaking truth quite like kids do.

Sometimes, I wish I could erase the question I just asked my girls and move on. I always said that I was going to keep a journal of the things my girls said as they are young. But, unfortunately I didn’t and my mind (to my surprise) has lost some things from the past. There are a select few that I am pretty sure I can never forget. I do wish I would just carry a camcorder around with me always…I’m sure I could make money off of what my youngest says now. I am listing some of my favorites below-

SOO-SEE 

It’s pronounced like shoe-she.

Sushi

LIMBO 

Limo

F-in Milk (I chose not to write the whole first word out) 😉

Chocolate Milk

Fly like a cheese stick

and that is what the song was called, not…

  I could probably go on forever. Both of my girls have such amazing personalities that I am thankful for each day. Now, when my 6 yr old tells me that I look so different and funny with my make-up off…That is when I wish she would keep at least 10% of her thoughts to herself. 🙂

Bazinga!

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Did I scare you? I am baaaaack! I was gone on a very long, difficult hiatus. Maybe not difficult, but I had a lot of crap going on, man. Let me bring you up to speed on what has been happening while I have been away….

– We were gone long days around Christmas visiting just about every family member we have.

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–  A very close family member of mine had what was to be “routine” surgery and it basically turned into everything but routine. Which he is still having difficulty with to this day. The hospital can be a very bad place. I believe the only way I will ever be admitted to one is NOT because of a surgery I decide I want, but because of one I HAVE to have.

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– I was planning what was to be, “the birthday party of a lifetime”, for my 6 year old daughter. The reason I say lifetime is because I am pretty sure she won’t get another birthday party like that for the rest of the time she is living with us. It wore me out! 50’s Pink Ladies Birthday Party with more decorations than I have ever done before. It was great, everyone showed up, the kids didn’t like my plans…they enjoyed jumping on Sienna’s “trampoline” in her room (AKA- her bed). I tried….I have pictures, and hopefully it was enjoyed by all. Sienna can’t ever deny we didn’t ever give her a big party. I have witnesses!

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 Just to name a few more things…

-I have been a busy bee studying, and will be taking my PT test soon! Woohoo 🙂

– I am planning a wedding here, people! Can’t wait!!

There are several other things that have made me have a super busy life lately, like most other people.

Sorry, I was away for so long. I intend on doing a better job now. I may not be posting every day, but certainly a heck of a lot better than I have been doing. Maybe a few times a week, so get ready!

And Happy Day after Tax Day!

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The statue of liberty tax people have a few months off now. 🙂